I’m Tired/Some Assembly Required

Days like this nothing seems worth it

twenty plus hours awake

followed by a few hours’ sleep

hunger, frustration, noise

putting together cheap plastic toys

for excited kids who want to help

but who I find insanely distracting

my brain retracting

back to the incident trying to put

freon in my truck and how I

fucked it up

Need to spend more money

to fix a part, buy more freon

storms are coming tomorrow

already thunder in my head

the things I said while upset

make me feel shame

I blame myself

It all feels hopeless

I can’t cope with

life

my wife deserves better

my kids do too

but I can’t get through

can’t see the light

nothing went right today

can’t shake the feeling

I’ll always be this way